On Tuesday of this week I realized I was not ok. I was getting irritated by things that weren't big deals... but everything seemed like a big deal. Example: I had roofers on top of my condo making hammer noises... I can't tell you how ANGRY I was. Seriously! I was furious.
Then it dawned on me... I'm not usually like this. Dude! Get a hold of yourself. It's just a small annoyance...
All at once it had appeared I had HIT AN EMOTIONAL WALL! I didn't want to work. I didn't want to laugh. I didn't want to be a creative arts pastor... I didn't want to do anything really...
THE STUPID thing is... It took me way too long to realize.... THIS ISN'T NORMAL. So... I put the laptop away, whatever I was working on and thing about and worrying over. I started to pray and morn my loss.
I'm not super man. I do try to be, but I'm not. There is a season for all things... including a time to morn. So I have taken a few days t remember my uncle and to connect with others who loved him.
The church can survive as I take some time off... it's me who can't survive.
My Pastor said something I want to remember - "We can suffer through 1 Sunday. We can make due with a less than stellar worship time. What we can't do is lose you. That we refuse to do. It's not just about this sunday... It's about the rest of your life."
I'm thankful for a Pastor like that!
I have taken some time where I'm not thinking about "work." I hadn't been blogging either... needed to step away and breathe. Tuesday was one of the worst days I can recall... Wednesday was one of the best. I felt free. I've been praying and feeling the closeness of God and a great peace. I'M THANKFUL
- WALLS ARE THERE FOR A REASON... DO YOU KNOW WHY YOURS IS THERE?
- DO YOU RECOGNIZE WHEN YOU HIT THE WALL? HOW?
- WHAT DO YOU DO?
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